"Secret Single Behavior" and music

I can't help but find myself slipping into "Secret Single Behavior" this morning now that I'm alone for a few hours. For those not familiar with the popular Sex and the City phrase, SSB is something we feel more free to do when we're living alone than when we're living with a significant other, roommate, family member,etc. Something you might feel otherwise embarrassed or too inhibited to do in front of others.

My biggest SSB? Playing music really loud, singing and sometimes dancing along. This is what I'm doing this morning. :) I realized I have been listening to significantly less music than usual the past few months because I don't want loud music to bother my mom and stepdad. I can do without much music temporarily. I know I will have my own apartment again soon enough, but it does make me a little sad not to hear my favorite tunes. So sometimes when I have a craving for music and I'm alone, I take advantage.

Music has this amazing power to access one's emotions, whether you're feeling stressed, depressed, hyper, happy, carefree. It's like music gives you an excuse to let it all out. The only thing that comes close to doing that for me is exercise and while exercise is certainly great too, music tends to be a more convenient and flexible outlet. I remember going out dancing with my friends in college and when the music was just right (preferably 80's music at Polly Esther's) I could be found on the dance floor in a timeless fog of bliss, my face glistening with joyful sweat. Even if I felt any kind of dancing fatigue, I couldn't stop, driven by the music, the beat, the rush and energy of the atmosphere in the room. I told my friend Tracy the other night that she and I need to find a Polly Esther's type dance club here in Seattle. :)

While alone, I also tend to clean in the near nude since I tend to get sweaty and feel nasty from the vigorous cleaning process. And sometimes workout with very little clothes on when I exercise inside my apartment. All of which also involves the playing of loud music!

I can't wait to live alone again so I can experience my SSB on a regular basis...